very good.look i don't comment often i suppose i am pretty much an emu voyeur anyway, it appears you have a problem lad. it is however not the end of the world you appear to realise this by posting on here and i think you know things aren't good. now i have had similar episodes but, i have bi-polar which kinda explains a lot of my actions and since i got my diagnosis i have been pretty good yet you have struck a string with me and if you ever need a chat pm me. by the way the wife is pretty damn good at dealing with a f***wit like me so you will be no probs lol. good luck matey.